Depression Cooking

After over two years of living with major depressive disorder, my culinary inclinations have definitely tended toward simple, one-dish meals, cheap and prepared with minimal effort. It's been necessary, I guess. Shoestring budget, plus crushing weariness that is as much mental as physical.

So, today I skilleted onions and sliced hotdogs, and added canned beans and spices once cooked. Warm through and top with shredded cheese and serve with toast and - presto! It's cheap as shit, and real filling. Not exactly healthy - hotdogs have high salt and fat content, not to mention whatever preservatives - but if you swap out the hotdogs for a vegetable (carrots? cabbage? eggplant?) it would be.

I guess I should try that too, sometime. I should add salsa, too, if available. I guess it's never quite the same, as I'm always improvising what I make - I don't really do recipes. (I guess that's part of why I avoid baking...)

Today I found Z6b3r's debut album on Lazerdiscs Records. Yeah, synthwave. I don't just listen to gloom and doom, though you might be forgiven for thinking so, based on what ends up embedded at the beginning of each of these posts. It's just what fits each day.


Wednesday the 25th of September, 2019

Pain: 40
Struggle: 30
Success: 45